Dear Vee....

 Dear Vee,  I hope you are proud of me. It's my second week of posting, and I am feeling it. I am pushing to continue writing to you as often as possible; bear with me. Things have been moving in slow motion these past three weeks. I am in the process of planning your second birthday. I still can't believe that I have been a mother for two years now. When I look at your growth and all the milestones you have achieved, I am amazed. Yet, there are days that I wake up asking God, why me? Why was I chosen to live the life I live? Why was I the one chosen to give birth to such an amazing little girl? Did I deserve the blessing that he continues to storm down on me? Do I acknowledge everything that he continues to do for us? We have fought many silent battles throughout the years, and the battles will continue to come, but now I can see each challenge as a way to grow and move to a different chapter in life. In the process of growing, I had to realize something, and after a few year...

Dear Vee,  Life has a very crazy way of showing you the truth and understanding the perspective of everyone around you. I grew up fighting to see the good in every individual. I grew up trying to show everyone that there is so much to this life that we could only imagine and touch. It's been a while since I built up the strength to continue to write to you. I made a promise to myself that I had broken so many times. I have so much to write to you, but lately, I feel the overwhelming shame that keeps taking over my soul. Every time I start to gain the courage to discover a rhythm to this thing called life, I get a surprise that makes me feel like I am not doing this right. I had always stated that in the process of writing this, I would be as transparent as possible with you. I want you to understand that I don't think I am there yet. I am not at the point where I can push my fears aside, look you in your eyes, and tell you the truth. Lately, there has been this overwhelming sha...